May 18th, 2012
a breeze kisses my neck
my hands on hips
I feel my silken skin
is it you?
I look for him in music
a smile perhaps
a touch that only I can feel
but it is your arms
that hold me close
caressing my back
lips upon my cheek
my mouth you seek
for the first time
a tear
a fear
it is his journey?
you say
there is room
in our hearts
for all our loves
this dance
I want to dance
with you
© Lynda Filler 2012
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May 6th, 2012
everybody loves you here
you are still in this world
don’t leave yet
don’t
stay awhile
let us love you more
and more
and more
that’s all we want
time
time to love
time to breathe
in
and out
time
time to accept
time to love
you
more
in sickness
and in health
everybody loves you here
we know
you have to go
we have hope
we have trust
but you have to trust me too
when your time is done
when you are ready to go
I promise I won’t interfere
this is my gift to you
and your gift to me
let me help you Home
© Lynda Filler 2012
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May 4th, 2012
izquierda
i look each morning
waiting
a sunrise to slam me into a day
taking what little breath
I have left
since you left
izquierda
the way I felt
for years
loving a phantom
a man who was
never
really
of this world
trying to explain
to myself
why
izquierda
a left/right/left alone
left again
and again
words
love words
God words
long-to-be-gone words
returning-to-your-Maker words
izquierda
never really present
yet capturing my heart
taking no prisoners
a Warrior of God
derecho
words
are
easy
© Lynda Filler
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April 30th, 2012
I don’t try to understand your pain
nor empathize with what you gain
by making choices of denial
waiting for your time to pass
all the while forgetting
how
to
live
I don’t try to understand
a choice to abstain
from love and passion
intimacy that is a God-given-gift
the closest we can ever come to
Heaven
on
Earth
I do understand
death and war
for death is a beginning
and wars are never ending
but Love is eternal
and more than that
I must agree
with the Rabbi’s message
sent to me
“but the greatest of these is Love”
© Lynda Filler 2012
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April 30th, 2012
she held a painting
against her breast
while perched precariously
on a wooden chest,
laughing gaily
for her lover–
oh my
she shyly staged
a pose or three
gasping at her audacity
lack of clothing
camera clicking
for his viewing pleasure–
sigh
all the while eyeing
her mirror image
counting pounds she’d
found this winter
sipping Pinot Grigio
and gorging on Nachos
at Eddie’s
in the darkest hour
lost in passion
basking in love
reveling in
i n t i m a c y
laughing
laughing and
laughing some more
she forgot for a moment
that he was dying
© Lynda Filler 2012
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April 23rd, 2012
I let you walk, talk
(he knows not what he says)
I let you fret, set
in ways I will never understand
I let you be, me: a follower
a leader leading,
a leader dying
p a r a n o i a
I let you sulk,
in(sin)u-ate
you cannot eat
you cannot take
(in)love
I let you
and Frank
do it
your way
a l o n e
and I paint
and pack
and sort
what is important
what is mundane
and board a plane
aware that insane
may be your present state
and still
I will come to you
and be with you
while you die
because I love you
© Lynda Filler 2012
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April 21st, 2012
I dance
I move my hips
crazy and wild
I wait for you
my body wanders
my heart in tune
my soul succumbs
I mate with you
I dance
I dance
I dance
we traveled paths
that few have taken
alone, aloof,
our choice
we are the chosen
I hear the sound
of Lovestoned music
I feel you
you move your body
I match with mine
close, and closer still
stoned
on love
I
am
© Lynda Filler 2012
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April 17th, 2012
all around me
there was laughter
music, a wild party
he was my hero
that boy who held my hand
but my lover, never
I watched you walk alone
I, surrounded by friends
who were mere acquaintances
I longed for you to notice me
now I wonder
were you shy, afraid
assuming competition
where none existed
yes, I watched you
walking alone
following a path designed for one
and when you stopped
and lingered by the lake
I wished it were my hand
you were holding
instead of stones
© Lynda Filler
Inspired by Chuck Steffen.
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April 14th, 2012
I’ve been down
this road before
stumbled
a heart broken
in tiny little pieces
I’ve wept
slept
been adept
at moving on
and yet
lurking
waiting
hoping
praying
for what, you say
for naught, I reply
time waits for no man
life marches on
memories
l i n g e r
opportunities missed
hearts never won
souls never mated
the magic waiting
outside your comfort zone
© Lynda Filler 2012
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April 14th, 2012
we were both kids
once
we laughed at silly things
we sent love notes
between the pages
of Latin grammar books
and giggled with girlfriends
he loves me
he loves me not
when we were teenagers
we danced in the rain
made out in parked cars
dreamed of a future
that was always perfect
picket fences, not so much
independence, yes,
that’s the one for me
(all the while waiting
for my Knight in Shining Armor)
understanding
of Your Ways
has never been easy
acceptance
harder still
a life, passion filled
unconditional love
has become
my mantra
if I was All-powerful
I would grant everyone
at least one wish
I might still be
Sleepless in Vallarta
but I would rather
sleep with you
© Lynda Filler 2012
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